A lost sheep. My eyes darted back and forth for safety, treasure, opportunities to drink (i.e. fun), career success, a place to call home. Frantic to escape the emotional pain. Squatting here and there, forcing myself to belong. Many drunk nights. Broken dreams, absent promises and a soul in need of repair.
There was no fixing my eyes before I believed in God and met Jesus.
If anything, depression and loneliness turned my gaze inward. Disgusted at who I was, my eyes turned away … and down.
Have you ever noticed a person walking while looking down, seemingly consumed by their fears and shame?
When you don’t know what it means to truly belong, scraps of hope placed on abandoned ships can only sustain you so long.
When people are brought low and You say, “Lift them up!” then He will save the downcast (Job 22:29).
You can imagine the flip in one’s brain to leave behind a lifetime of seeking tangible things to fill the empty … to seek life in the holy, sacred, unseen place of Most High.
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal (2 Corinthians 4:17-18).
When my heart finally wrapped its veins around my life was no accident or afterthought … when I believed someone other than me was carrying the literal weight of the world on His shoulders … my eyes longingly sought after my Lord and Savior.
Life has changed slowly at times, and in a whirlwind others, but I stand before you with these words:
Jesus is waiting for you to invite Him in. The change that comes from knowing Jesus is only good and over-full of love not found on earth.
None of us are finished beings. In effect, we all have one mess or another going on. Messes are His specialty.
Jesus is our hope of living full lives here on earth, in spite of circumstances. He is our hope of a glorious life after death shared with God and other believers.
Our gaze is important, where we set our eyes. When I keep eternity front and center, I have more peace and a lightness that carries me above life’s troubles.
I am reading Hope in Front of Me by Danny Gokey with Ben Stroup. Mr. Gokey was young and newly married when his wife was ill with a weak heart. Days moved to years of medical appointments, surgeries and finally her death. Danny writes:
“Focusing on hope allowed our burden to be lighter. It helped us keep a proper perspective. We refused to be under the situation, we wanted to live above it (p.44).”
Just as our words have the power to change us and others:
But the things that come out of a person’s mouth come from the heart, and these defile them (Matthew 15:18).
Where we fix our eyes has the power to feed our faith.
Therefore since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with the perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith (Hebrews 12:1-2).
This passage tells us while we get ready to look up, better shake off the sin and any temptation.
But first, take note … look and see who is around you. “A great cloud of witnesses” is our brothers and sisters in the faith to encourage us with their lives and connections.
Then, gear up for this race. It’s not an easy one, but here’s how we win.
We “fix our eyes on Jesus”, not our husband or friend or boss … right on Jesus because He created this race and is the perfect teacher to instruct us in the way we need to finish.
All in? Eyes up, brothers and sisters, and press on!
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Have a beauty-full day.