About three winters ago, I used to lie on our son Braedon’s bed in the afternoon. Plagued with a darkness from my past, I could not seem to escape ghostly haunting and death’s taunting. I would wait until the sun had moved into position to shine directly through his window. Though I had faith, my greedy soul needed to see His light to retrain my heart to believe its power.
This morning I brought Jackson to his gastro doctor and hurried him back to school. My husband is at work. Braedon is at school.
This is my time to write, when I am alone with God. As I tapped the keys, the noise irritated me. My mind drifted to the calls I need to make: eye doctor, health insurance, and others to confirm. The book He has laid on my heart seems urgent, like heaven is saying Now Julie, the time is now to get My Message out.
Today, I stretched out on Braedon’s bed, seeking His sun to cover my face. As much as the Vitamin D will help calcium sink into my weary bones, His light is unmistakable in its abundance. Envisioning clarity, my eyes closed, muscles released their tension, my soul received His gift.
It was as if God was saying I see you, child. I know your heart is pulled down while watching your son go through suffering. I know what that is like.
Ephemeral confirmation trumps every earthly plan.
The hour I spent with God in His amazing light not only refreshed my spirit but gave me permission to write, even if just for forty-five minutes.
The sense of urgency about the book has lifted, yet its importance is stamped on the tablet of my heart. My trust in Him to give the words is renewed.
What has dragged your spirit down, affected your productivity in His Kingdom? How can you seek Him to refresh your mind, body and soul?
For the Lord God is our sun and shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right (Psalm 84:11).
Thank you for joining me. I pray these words draw you nearer to His light, to His power to restore and refresh. Feel free to begin a conversation here in the comments. If I may pray for you, please email email@example.com.
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Have a beauty-full, sun-filled day.