The last couple mornings have been thick with fog. A creamy, cloudy blend of moisture and air. A reminder to me that even when my heart wants so badly to see what’s next, God’s plans are shroud until the appointed time.
I was one among many who gathered to pray in the beginning of Covid-19 who believed it would be short-lived, that surely our God would answer fervent prayers to lift it.
One month turned into two, then three, then …
Violence filled our streets. Hate speech continues to infect social media. The evil accuser apparently has enjoyed full reign over the world, claiming souls left and right to his limited-time-only dominion.
In each of our hearts, in each of our families, we also had trouble.
Sisters and brothers whom I have prayed for have suffered loss, health decline, and increasing anxiety and fear about their future.
It hit me just last night how this year has been extremely hard for us, too. I mean my husband, myself, and our sons.
At a local outdoor worship event last night, I heard the worship leader’s, a blessed son of God, testimony:
“I choose joy because joy is a person,” he said.
The more he shared about his life’s struggles, the more God whispered to me in the dark.
You had a hard year. Your husband had a hard year. Both your sons had a hard year. You pressed on, strained forward, seeking Me. I was your strength, your comfort, your living Hope.
Faith in our unseen God grows in trials, sometimes like wild fire.
His glory appears when we least expect it, sometimes especially when we grow weary.
God didn’t remind me how wonderful I had been getting through this past year. He ever so gently reminded me of His wonders, His presence, His Son Jesus.
It was He who helped me stay present during the ups and downs, reminding me this life cannot be raced, just one step and one prayer at a time.
Did you need that reminder? We cannot go faster to skip the valley.
We cannot go faster up the mountain to see what His plans are on the other side.
Waiting is hard.
We had to wait through many tests and much suffering for our son Jackson’s diagnosis.
Now we are in the wait for His healing to be in full.
We had to wait for schools to open part-time. Now we wait for them to open full-time.
Each shift my husband goes to work, I wait for him to return home, trusting God to protect him.
Being His chosen leader for a Revival w/Follow-up event, I must wait for His work in others to fill the leadership team.
Though He has called me to pastoral ministry, I must wait until January to begin a Master’s program, waiting and praying through each class.
Waiting is hard. Did I already mention that?
God brought me to Lamentations the other night. I asked Him to help me wait with steadfast faith and hope in Him:
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him.”
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him;
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord (Lamentations 3:24-26).
We are all waiting for God to reveal the next President. We are all waiting for Covid to go away.
But what if it doesn’t?
One step, one prayer at a time.
Let us seek Him who fans the flames in our souls, who brings us to our spiritual knees to pray with boldness, with expectancy, with HOPE.
For God does not live to give us glory. His blessings are not pats on the backs of His people to congratulate their good works.
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him.
His Word is clear. We cannot earn His grace, His blessing.
His Word points us to intimate relationship with Him. Our year won’t seem long … the wait won’t seem excruciating, the fog won’t stall us if we stay present with the supernatural, life-changing presence of God.
Will you join me to live a life focused on Him rather than our circumstances?
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath’ do not fret-it leads only to evil. For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land (Psalm 37:5-9).
Thank you for joining me here.
I am still bending my ear toward heaven to hear of His changes with this blog.
I pray today you heard hope directly from Him, or from Him through me.
All photos in this post are from Pixabay.com.
Have a beauty-full day no matter the weather or circumstance, for He is with you.
Love in Christ,