It was Thursday this past week.
Our Jackson, diagnosed with Crohn’s earlier this year, is now having knee trouble. Our Action Jackson is struggling in his fourteen year old heart with many things, trying to accept he is not as fast as he was last year.
Let’s face it. Fourteen year old boys live for friends, sports, and we hope for God and family.
All I know as I listened to the words fall out of Jackson’s mouth … then what’s the point of living … my mama heart was suddenly like jello, translucent, jiggling with anxiety.
Evil lurks in the shadows. At times, the dark becomes bold enough to encroach light:
Our flesh is weak.
With nervous words, I tried to bring the focus of our conversation back to present, back to God.
Jackson left, went to his room.
hope slipped out of focus
for a moment we were both drowning
gasping for His life-breath
I began to pray:
Lord, I rebuke Satan in the holy name of Jesus. Lord, surround Jackson with angels whom You have called to minister to him, bring him to the grace and hope of salvation. Lord, Jackson is Your son before he is mine. Lord, please help him.
My palms were sweaty as I curled myself on the couch waiting for God’s prompting to go to Jackson.
Jackson’s words echoed to the past. Though the holes in my soul have been repaired by Jesus, I still remember the depth of darkness that once surrounded me, when childhood wounds hung open.
May I always remember how He rescued me, how even before I knew Him, His light was stronger than the dark. For it is in this place of awe where hope rises.
Not too long after I prayed, Jackson came out of his room. His smile, worth 1,000 prayers. He told me a friend was going with him to basketball practice.
Apparently, he didn’t need his mom as much as he needed his friend. Praise God for His mercy and love!
Only God could make things fall into place so smoothly.
When God reveals His power to swiftly answer prayer, we should be thank-full. I was. I was also very unsettled to be shown how the devil is prowling around to devour my son.
Those of you who struggle with depression and who have ever been suicidal, you know how hope hides. It is not Jesus the living Hope that hides.
It is evil attempting to crush our anchor, slapping the hand we reach to Jesus in times of need. It is sinful secret whisperings about how you are never going to be well and you will never be enough.
Does Jackson know there is victory in Christ?
Yes.
Does Jackson love Jesus?
Yes.
Do we as parents need to keep our ears open and knees at the altar for this boy?
Yes.
The spiritual battle unfortunately finds us. We don’t need to look for it.
If you are a follower of Jesus, satan is after your soul.
Let us humble ourselves to be empowered by the Living, Breathing Spirit of God.
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world (1 John 4:4).
Let us pray like there is no tomorrow for our households, for whomever God lays upon your heart. #prayliketheresnotomorrow
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him (Hebrews 11:6).
Seek His light which is forever found, no matter how dark it gets. And … no matter how long the devil succeeds in hiding hope, Hope is forever victorious.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit (Romans 15:13).
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Thank you for joining me here. This is a place where you will find hope and authentic sharing of struggles. Jesus told us in this world we would have trouble. That we do.
Please feel free to leave a comment here or email me at juliedibblespeaks@gmail.com to share how God is working in your life, or how He spoke to you here.
P.S. All photos in this post are mine.
In His love and for His glory,
Julie
Jackson is blessed to be part of a family filled love and grounded in their faith with the Lord. May the hope-filled Spirit of Jesus continue to inspire and carry Jackson forward.
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Yes, Richard! Thank you so much for this blessing “may the hope-filled Spirit of Jesus continue to inspire and carry Jackson forward”. Yes and amen.
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Ps 42.5-11 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance. O my God, my soul is cast down within me: …Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me. Yet the LORD will command his lovingkindness in the daytime, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life. I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God? Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
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Thank you Kathy. I trust you know by now how transparently I write, sharing each step of the struggle. I trust God and so does Jackson, but we all fall short at times. Thank you for His truth.
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A prayer sent up for your beloved son, Jackson!
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Thank you dear Wendi. I know you know the walk of chronic illness. I pray God gives you peace today, that supernatural peace the world does not understand.
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it is truly my pleasure to pray for him……
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Hey Julie,
I’m so glad I came across your post and could join you in prayer for Jackson. I was a middle school nurse for eighteen years–as well as a mother to two sons– like you. I feel the anguish you had for him and the need for God to reach to your adolescent son and pull him out of the ‘miry pit.’
Prayers for him and all of you as God continues to give his Hope and Light.
Blessings,
Connie
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Oh Connie, thank you doesn’t seem like enough. I think it is just beautiful how God leads us to carry burdens for others. Thank you for coming alongside us. My heart is full as I read this today. Blessings to and over you, Julie
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“When God reveals His power to swiftly answer prayer, we should be thank-full.” How wonderful that through every challenge and issues we face, especially in the area of parenting, we can trust ABBA’s answer to our prayers. I’m glad He answered yours speedily. I will keep you, Jackson and the rest of the family in prayers. ♥️
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OHhh thank you sister. Jackson is going through so much. I am very thankful for those praying for him and us. Just found out today how God moved his MRI for the knee to tomorrow (was originally scheduled 11-21). Praise His Holy Loving Name! Please let me know how I may lift you and yours up, Dee.
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My pleasure, dear sister. Now, prayers that I not walk in financial anxiety and discontentment.
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Thank you so much Eileen. How are you and your daughter doing?
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Dee i hope you see this message. I am praying for you, asking God to remind you of His spirit of power, love and self-discipline that overcomes fear. May He be with you as you lean into Him in surrender dear sister.
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