Did you ever notice how concentrating on something, hard, for several days straight can leave you depleted?
Or maybe it’s just me. Could be my upcoming age (or the one I am at now).
All I can say is, “I am tired.”
I don’t have many thoughts after that. That is perhaps what scares me. Today I put Rocko in his crate, folded laundry, took a shower, and finally got into my office area to work. I was not motivated. But more than that, I couldn’t think through what I should work on first.
“Lord, I am tired. Why am I this tired?”
God is not in the habit of answering why questions. Spirit did remind me I had not listened to a worship song in the house since we got Rocko.
Natalie Grant sang beautifully in my ears. Sadly, my parched lips had nothing to pray. My heart stagnant, my head missing my Jesus.
“Lord why am I this tired?”
Though I knew He wouldn’t answer, I needed to say it again. Repetition can help stir.
Lord knows my weary heart needs a big ole ladle spoon pouring only what He can give … living water, fresh anointing, grace.Tweet
Oh grace to myself?
I nestled my head into the Penguin flannel sheets Jackson gave me in 2019 Christmas. Slowly, as if savoring the moment, I stretched every blanket over my tired body.
Tired, drained, behind on lots of things.
As I finish this post, I am ministering to myself:
It does not matter if 50 other women who are now 50 can get a new puppy, still remember lipstick, complete all their errands, and rock seminary assignments with their eyes closed. You, Julie, are made in His image, you have limits just like all people do. It is ok you are tired. Take care of yourself, keep a hold of Jesus’ robe, and ask Him to help your unbelief that He is almighty God who can renew your strength.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.
Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.
This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones (Proverbs 3:5-8).
Which of us does not need health to our body and nourishment to our bones?
Hi there. These are my unfiltered, honest reflections. Feel free to share your level of tired and how God lifted you giving you necessary strength.
I look forward to hearing from you.
In His love and for His glory,