This given day is FULL to the brim.
The Dibble house is FULL and split at the same time.
My heart is empty and being filled as we speak.
For those of you who are here, I pray you are receiving His free gift of supernatural peace, not as the world gives.
I am currently over-caffeinated yet still His peace reigns over and in me.
August 29th began new things.
- Braedon is enrolled in college classes which will satisfy his senior high school requirements. Therefore, Braedon is considered a dual-enrollment student and has no obligations to be physically in the school building. Braedon is internally and supernaturally motivated to complete his work, continue to work on his novel series and be number one caretaker of Rocko our pup. It is very likely Braedon will have a published book within the year. Praise His Holy Saving Name!
- Jackson began his sophomore year of high school. Just before our late August vacation, Jackson decided to join the Cross Country Team. Sounds great, right? The reality of becoming a runner, essentially overnight for our young chronic illness man, is daunting. Yet, God has granted Jackson the grit for sports, any of them, and the courage to go forth in things he has never tried before. For the first time since he began running, yesterday Jackson was able to keep up with the team on their 3 mile jaunt and not get lost 🙂 In the wake of physical and mental exhaustion, Jackson needs frequent prompting: to get out of bed in the morning; to complete his homework, to hydrate, to give me papers to sign sometime other than when we are trying to leave in the morning lol.
- I began a second part-time job. On paper, the job is 15 hours per week. In my heart, it is way more than that. I am the new Chaplain for Paxton Ministries, a personal care facility for adults with mental illness. There are currently 75 residents and thirty or so staff. This is a position God gave to me, opened the door swiftly and waited for me to walk through. I did, though I was largely unaware of how all the details would work. Isn’t that often our own stumbling block? Worry trumps His lighted path. We cement our feet on the illuminated space. With whispers, we begin to rationalize why it is NOT prudent to go where we have no experience, no support, no way of knowing if all the details will work. How swiftly we forget the King of the World shall also be the King of our hearts. In the second interview for this position, I was asked (again) why I wanted to work at Paxton. I could say nothing more than to follow God, that I was convicted He was leading me there. So, here I am. A bit overwhelmed. Graciously humbled to know it is a privilege to be used by Him anywhere, that we in our own right are so unworthy. And though I basically know a rough schedule of what I will be doing when I go to work at Paxton next week, I am trusting Him to lead me each step of the way. He is faithful to lead. Are we as faithful to pause, listen, make life adjustments and follow Him? I pose that question as much to myself as to you. I enjoyed many conversations with residents last week. God opened the door for me to pray with two willing women. However, how quickly I forgot to pause and pray when a male resident began pointing and criticizing another woman resident in a rather threatening manner? I said his name as if I was his mother. I thank God for how He diffused the situation because I did not help to do that. When I got back to my office, I wrote these words: I hear volume increasing. How may I help us get to peace? If you as the readers have any other verbal diffusions which would lead to peace, please share them here. The biggest challenge in this new position is not the latter situation but rather the constant flow of people and needs (whether staff/meetings and/or residents). It is common for residents to knock on staff doors or walk in if they are open and become the center of attention. I noted boundaries as necessary in the interview. Lord knows I need to lean on Him to live them out, model them, and lead the residents as a gentle shepherd to respect and dignity of all involved.
- My blessed husband Jason. There are times in marriage when connection is unhindered and flows naturally. That is not the case right now. Jason is stretched thin with an inconsistent schedule and mounting stress during his shifts. I thank God for giving us a weekend away this month, just us. It will be like squeezing the water out of a sponge to get us packed and out of our house. But God. All things are possible with Him. I trust Jesus to bind me and Jason yet again in His love and grace and new mercies.
- This blog. To stay or go is the question. I am struggling to write consistently, though there are still books living in me. One day soon, God will return me to those. I view this place as a place of refuge, where I can come away from the daily pressures and responsibilities. A place to process as much as record. Here, in the bloggerverse, I am a visitor who welcomes connection. However, are you who connect here ok that I am transient, not sure when I will let go completely of the blog?
For all of you who are in transition, God sees you. He knows behind your smile, your teeth are grinding. He has gone before this current transition to take care of the details. Look to Him for help, not food, not shopping, not alcohol or drugs.
Let us pray:
Oh Lord of Lords, You are mighty to save! The only name under heaven by which we must be saved. Thank You Jesus for Your finished work on the Cross, for taking every burden off our shoulders, for nailing our sins even before we commit them. Lord, we seek Your face in the midst of change, for these changes are temporary, and You are eternal. Lord, Your peace that surpasses our understanding, please cover each of our hearts and those of our family as we traverse new ground. Lord, we trust You will light each step and make known what we need in Your perfect timing. In Jesus Name, Amen.
As I have said before, I am here to pray for you. You may reach here in the comments or by email. May God bless and keep you. In Christ, Julie