Jason and I drove separately to the beach. We needed two cars because I would leave early on our last day to take Jackson for his second infusion treatment. Our amazing puppy sitter arrived at 10am Sunday morning, with suits on, Braedon and I headed out with full intentions to be on the beach later … Continue reading Ever Feel Like You are Reaching, Never Grasping?
I simply have not been numb much at all since I stopped drinking. Numb is like after the rubbing alcohol evaporates off the wound. A distinct absence of heart strings. Silence in your soul. Numb is mute but usually with lots to share. How does one become numb when they are in Christ, their blessed … Continue reading Numb Prayers
You could be having the best day ever … night will come. You could close all curtains, pull all the blinds, turn on all the lights in the house … the night will still come, like a thief. I used to fight with night. Insomnia started in my young teens. Worry propped open my eyelids. … Continue reading The Night Comes
When you have lived most of your life without your mom on earth and now sixteen years without your dad on earth, sometimes I just can’t look at picture after picture on Facebook. Sometimes I just can’t grasp good memories as there were so many challenging ones. Honestly, I have very few pictures of my … Continue reading Sometimes I Just Can’t, and That is OK
I don’t know what has been worse these last several months: watching Jackson as he endured tests, diagnoses and surgery or watching Braedon finish another year of school without one single friend. Then there have been days my husband comes home from work, and his stress is too much, reaching the brim of every brain … Continue reading Mountain Vacation Part 2 of 2
For those of us in the U.S., remember how life came to a screeching halt last March? Families who were used to zipping around, eating out were trapped … together. God is an expert at restoring relationships, burning idols. Without warning, He removed our ability to spend oodles of money and time on sports, entertainment, … Continue reading Mountain Vacation Part 1 of 2
There are many ways God is speaking to me about this. I lead a small group at church based upon the book Stimulating a Passion for the Lost. In our second class, I challenged everyone to share their faith in the coming week. One subsequent morning, I took Rocko for a walk at the local … Continue reading Do We Lay Down Our Lives for Him?
As I prepare an oral presentation for class, I am awe-struck by His sovereignty. Imagine a rear-view mirror. As you look deeply, you see His hand moving people and places around to prepare the way for your present-day life in Him. Christ Himself is in the minute details, subtle nuances. He knows every bead of … Continue reading God Knows What is to Come
Oh how I pray I could look Jesus straight in His eyes tonight. While I am here on earth, developing endurance for this race of faith. As I pray, that subtle yet unmistakable God-breathed wind flows through my soul. Such love empties from Christ when He sees me looking to Him. Have you looked into … Continue reading Keeping Our Eyes Fixed
The whole earth will acknowledge the Lord and return to Him. All the families of the nations will bow down before Him. For the royal power belongs to the Lord, He rules all the nations (Psalm 22:27-28 NLT). Do we believe this? That Our King is coming? That every knee will bow and every tongue … Continue reading Our Coming King