When You Can’t Pray

my lips part

i am finished with what never started

when i remember i look up

a silent echo in my empty cup

my head knows He is here

but i cant shake the fear

of losing my son

the one given as a gift

sometimes so adrift

my heart

suspends

between earth and heaven

stillness

a fullness

what i say

if i should pray

does not matter

as much as my heart’s chatter

for it is in the secret place

his mercy and grace

overcome

lies

for now and always His truth

cannot be undone

~jad

Difficulty praying is a new thing for me. What He has taught me is this: we put way too much worldly value upon words spoken in prayer. The meat of the very pit of our souls is touched before praying begins. He is all over the needs which we scream, cry, yell, whisper. Many words of prayer spoken in public are for human ears when prayer is the language given by Our Holy God for His ears.
Jesus warns us about being hypocrites, praying in public.

Go to your secret place.

Come be intimate with Me, says Jesus.

(read Matthew 6:5-6)

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Thank you to all who have been praying for us. This is a hard time to be living. The devil is working overtime to put a wedge between God and His chosen. If you are having trouble praying, read the Matthew reference in this post. Know that He is with you and for you. Know there is no word-count requirement for prayer. Just be with Him, open yourself to Him, pray if you are able but don’ force it.

Love, Julie