Mary was alone with herself again. Worries weaving lies into her skin covering her brittle frame.
Nobody likes me. Not one person talked to me tonight.
Seeking relief, she tips her head way back. Dry wine slides down her throat as if it has found its home.
One glass surely won’t be enough. Not after the day I had.
Filling up and sucking down until the hollow bottle lay on the counter.
Must be time for bed. Its dark out. My head is heavy.
Fumbling her clothes until most of them are off, she slinks under the covers as a lioness advances toward her prey. Deeply numb, the twinge in her temple grabs her attention.
I should take Advil. Work, the kids.
A couple hours later, her cracked lips barely close around her swollen tongue.
Where the hell is the bottle of water I always have by the bed?
Before she can quench her thirst, shame waves its finger in her face.
You are a sorry excuse for a woman.
Sleep eludes her. Morning breaks. The baby cries. Her husband stares accusingly before heading to the crib.
Nobody loves you. How could they?
Burrowing under the mountain of warmth, her bare legs curl until her kneecaps rest just below her chin. Her body feels not her own. Beaten and lacking. Empty and lonely.
Sacred silence is for any one of us who come to the end of ourselves.
Sacred silence is where we sit before Jesus, our souls echoing past wrongs.
Sacred silence speaks in ways we will never humanly understand.
Sacred silence is the strength and confidence in Christ, the power that propels us out of our self-pity.
In silence, both His and ours, He never stops working, redeeming, orchestrating, healing.
Exodus 14:4: “The Lord will fight for you while you keep silent.”
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